Well, I've got 2 days to go until the end of this week, and believe me...I'm looking forward to tomorrow when I can get on my jeans and t-shirt (and sweatshirt...because it's cold) and come to work. I love casual Fridays :) They're worth going through the whole week for...

I woke up this morning with the worst charley horse imagineable. If you're not familiar with a charley horse, here's the definition:

a painful, involuntary cramp of an arm or leg muscle resulting from excessive muscular strain or a blow.

In other words, one painful cramp! I had talked to the doctor about it before since I had been getting them a lot a few months ago and he said it was a calcium deficiency and that I should take calcium suppliments (i.e. Tums or Caltrate or something), but they went away shortly after that...now they're back...with a vengeance.

It has to be the cold weather. I've got the heat on in my house, but it was colder than crap in there this morning...Did I mention I hate the winter? I am starting to worry if the baby is going to be cold. Since I have vaulted ceilings in my living room and I live on the second floor, on a corner...my house does not retain the heat very well. My worst fear is that he's going to be so cold...and I don't want that to happen at all.

I'm really getting these crazy fears and worries about being a mom right now...will I be a good one? Will I be the worst mom ever? It's so nerve-wracking sometimes. I know it's nothing to worry about, but it being winter and all, so many bad things could happen when the baby finally gets here. I was worried last night about my kid being in entirely hand-me-down clothes. I really wanted to wait to have kids when I was financially set and stable and here I am, poor as dirt, having a baby. I just don't feel adequate and I feel bad already because he's not going to have anything. My boyfriend reassures me that it's okay that he has hand-me-down clothes and he's not going to be this poor little baby, but ahh...it just concerns me.

Okay, that rambling is over with...it just depresses me.

I was wondering why there were so many bikers on the road on Thursdays, but then it hit me. Denver has adopted this alternative transportation thing on Thursday and they encourage people to carpool or take something other than a car to work on Thursdays...BUT, to be honest, there was some guy out there riding his bike in 34 degree weather. I don't care how much riding a bike may warm you up...but no...I'd rather sit in my nice heated car and pollute the air on Thursdays than freeze my ass off riding my bike to work. If I had someone to carpool with, I would...but I don't, so I'll just drive by myself. Don't get me wrong, I'm all about being eco-friendly, but I'm also realistic about it. I need to get to work, I live 30 minutes from my work in my car, I'm not going to NOT use my car to save the environment. I would hope that the need to survive would outweigh that...

But yeah...I'm done doing my bitch bitch about everything this morning. Drinking my cocoa, have my bag of chocolate (oh yes, a very healthy breakfast) and now...I've actually gotta start doing something productive.

TSA stuff...
your bags must be checked more than 45 before your flight leaves. they said that that was so they could have enough time to check the bags before they were loaded onto the plane. check your airline for details as well as the airport you are flying out of and in to.
» jen on 2006-10-12 10:58:22

Chew Your Cramps Away!
I heard VIACTIV® has a carmel calcium chew that is like eatting bon bons!

Hey watch out for those bikes! Haha you wrote I was wondering why there were so many bikers on the road on Thursdays, but then it hit me. What a bike hit you! ROFL
» JMC on 2006-10-12 11:53:13

I worry about the same thing with my baby. So all that is normal. I think you're going to be a wonderful mom. ;) My mom, sisters, & mother-in-law have been helping us and they are very supportive. I still worry sometimes but not as much.
But about the sicko dude, 4 years is not enough but it's better then him just walking away getting nothing out of it.
Have a wonderful day.
» Princess_00 on 2006-10-12 01:01:17

Oh god do I get them!! SO bad!! I will wake up practically screaming and literally jump out of band to stand on the leg to get the charlie horse out. There are some nights where I get them in the same leg several times in one night and it takes me many hours just to be able to walk properly again without keeping that leg on tip-toes until it finally gets stretched back out.
» etheracide on 2006-10-12 06:19:20

My dad bikes even when it's raining... I mean, if he's coming home at least. He only takes the car if it's either hailing or raining so hard biking would be fatal.

Shame on you for polluting! >:(
» randomjunk on 2006-10-12 06:30:18

Haha, I take it you don't care much about the "don't eat fish while you're pregnant!" thing then?
» randomjunk on 2006-10-12 09:47:57

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